Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Good news update
From watchful waiting to complete reevaluation has been the focus of the last 2 weeks, very intense thinking.
It started with a visit to Dana Farber, DFCC, right here in my back yard. I need a cancer home for treatment and scanning.
My visited with Dr. Stephan Hodi, another top doc in melanoma. http://news.harvard.edu/
It began with a call before the visit to add a visit with another doc: Andrea Ng
http://connects.catalyst.
a radiation oncologist. Why? I wonder. I thought radiation doesn’t work with melanoma.
Katie told me I needed someone to go with me, and I did. I was dumbstruck when Dr. Hodi offered me a clinical trial that included interferon as an option. Interferon is a year of feeling ill, with not a great chance of success, but the other 2 arms of the clinical trial were with the new drug “Ipi”. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/
He noted my stunned look, and told me I had many options and all are right: waiting with scans, radiation, more surgery, and a clinical trial.
Yikes, I thought I had decided!
Lou Fazen was with me for Dr. Ng appointment. She was persuasive making a case for radiation, in my case, where there may be microscopic disease in the groin. She was very impressive. Carefully outlining why I should consider this option.
She followed up immediately getting me an appt back at UMass with Dr. Shirin Sioshansi http://physicians.
The next day Lou went to the surgery consult. In my case, usually the whole toe is removed. Dr. Lambert took half and a revision has always been a consideration. But where Dr. Russell offered a redo, Dr. Ng offered a superficial radiation treatment called brachytherapy. That is radiation around the outside of the toe and I don’t have to do the rehab and loss of function/ balance.
Oh, how to decide, I talked to Elizabeth, Katie Jane, my sister, Drs. Lynn and Lou, my friends Judy and Pat from the lake, Dr. Lucy Marion, my old boss, Jean Raas Moore, nurse and friend from Georgetown. Looking at all the options, some more Medline researching, and my emotional reaction to each...the gut check.
Current decision: no surgery, yes to radiation.
The scanning recommended by Chapman will be in the plan. But not until at least 3-4 months after the last surgery (1/26), sometime in April or May, but I don’t know if radiation changes that.
A great visit from Porter, Chris and Trina offered a true high point. Kevin, Carol and Bob visited with Trina’s folks...many pics are on shutterfly becknoyes, or trina's facebook
http://becknoyes.shutterfly.
Visits to Klem’s and Old Sturbridge Village and family fun.
It was hard to let my Portercillan go at the airport.
I have so many memories that keep me sustained
Flowers from the Newcombs
The Morelli family saying goodbye to the family patriarch
A beer refrig from the Nielsens
Words of encouragement from Anna facing her own trial with MS
Phone calls and emails and sustaining words, meals, friendship visits
Africa memories book from Kim and Mike
Thank you Lake and Farm Team.
Meg
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Katie, Elizabeth and I met Paul Chapman at the MSCKK yesterday and made the Chicago connection. He went to med school at University of Chicago and “Kathryn Edmiston was my intern”, a year behind him. She is the Breast Center head at UMass and my doc since my 2005 lumpectomy. Her recommendation was “the standard” interferon treatment that involved one year of feeling awful. That is typical for a non-melanoma center’s recommendation, as I found out.
As one of the leaders in the field and maybe the leader at the leading center, his recommendation was monitor for melanoma activity progression using CT and/or MRI every 3 months to see if it recurs – and where it recurs. Then treat with more effective medications than the standard interferon when and if it recurs. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if it never recurred!
He had a vaccine trial but did not recommend it. There may be an upcoming trial that will start this spring that may be appropriate. He discussed where my cancer home would be, and thought Dana Farber would be closer and he is good friends with Stephan Hodi and thought he would want the scans done at “Harvard”.
While scanning every 3 months in NYC is no problem, if and when a trial and / or treatment is necessary, the drugs could be administered in Boston. The drugs that are more effective are only for Stage 4 and it would be a stretch to come to NYC for treatment.
What a relief, someone recommending something that makes sense. The trials with interferon were not great, but that’s all there was, until this last year.
Hey, I’m free to be me, for a while at least, look for me on your doorstep to see if you can come out and play, as I continue to travel and expound on left wing radical thinking.
Sidebar, Chapman was impressed that we lunched at Jojo’s. When he commented on the cost, I relayed that the lunch $28 was a bargain for the 3 courses. Thank you college roomie, Margaret Breed for the treat and fun at lunch. I always recommend a top spot for food while visiting the top docs. Ah, the sauces, ah, the subtlety, ah, the décor, ahhhhhhh good food.
Bless you Dr. Chapman for clear recommendations that I can live with for a while.
Ej wants to make an immediate appt. with Dr Hodi.
http://doctors.dana-farber.org/directory/profile.asp?pict_id=0000263
Happy Valentine’s Day to the Farm team
Meg
Friday, February 3, 2012
The staging is complete
The staging is complete
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
What a difference a few days and being pain free makes
Well, except I walked on the side of my left foot (one with toe amp) because I needed my special boot disinfected with bleach. I am paranoid about germs and hospital germs in particular.
I didn't want those hospital floor germs in my bed.
My floor germs are okay, but not the hospital floor. I just don't trust hospital germs.
So my funky walking on the side of my foot now created a new, major pain problem.
Massage, capsasin (pepper cream) and KT’s massage and stretch released the shortened muscle/tendon irritation over the last few days. Pain free and able to walk as of Monday afternoon. My sympathy to victims of plantar fasciitis. That must be what it was like. You need to keep the muscle stretched (especially when sleeping) to stop the pain.
Whew
On to new and better things
Tops:
- Getting emails, phone calls, texts, cards, and Facebook xo's from the farm/ lake team.
- Visit from Skip and Judy to install the under ice listening lake device...so I can hear the ice sounds...lacking at this point.
- Brother Bob visit brings Elaine’s meatballs. She is the only real Italian in the Manning/Noyes clan. And they were yummy. Being a real Italian, she couldn't come because it was one of her days with her widowed 95+ yr. old father, For almost 10 years, the 6 daughters have cared for their father, mostly in his home, but more recently in the nursing home. They remain his constant companions and caregivers. Amazing women. All of you in the Manning’s appreciate Elaine‘s wicked sense of style and humor. She and John Stone have been our stand up comics for years.
- Lynn and Lou brought a Japanese dinner augmented by seared ahi and asparagus from the Nielsen’s! Where does one luck into friends like this! Lynn and Lou are returning to her job in Beirut. Two of her most brilliant med students were accepted to Harvard for specialty rotations, a real coup! When she's around just watch the good things happen. And they took top honors in duplicate bridge.
- Bill Seabourne experimented, quite successfully with a down Maine recipe for chicken casserole from Captain Greenlaw. She was the captain of the boat that didn't go down in the Perfect Storm and reality TV captain of a long line swordfishing boat. I have followed her writings and now to taste the food from her little spot of heaven in Maine... thank you Seabourne’s http://www.lindagreenlawbooks.com/
- Peter Levine called from the QQLA to compare notes on his similar hospital experiences and to note how wonderful it is to have KT allowed having a residency experience in melanoma.
- Millers have a new granddaughter, Jennifer birthed Josephine JANE!
- Aunt Lois conveyed the care and concern only my mother’s sister could. What a nurse caretaker.
- Cousin Sharon Berkner said she speaks to the God of Mercy re my health and does it frequently. Couldn’t have anyone say it better or to the right power.
- Alternate son, Michael Wolaver's hysterical Horton Hears a Who card hit a sweet spot.
- And a long note from Marci Dubois a Noyes cousin. Thank you for reconnecting.
All had me in tears
What’s next:
Thursday 2/2 appt to hear path report of nodes
Monday 2/6 first hematology/ oncology visit to clarify mortality odds and treatments recommendation.
Monday 2/13 Mem Sloan Kettering Cancer Center (MSKCC) visit to top genetics doc Paul Chapman for the second opinion...anything out there that might be better than standard therapy?
Month of Feb. Time to heal
Month of Mar. Most likely recommendation will be interferon treatments 5x/week. A daily IV that makes you feel like you have the flu, likely side effects: fatigue, muscle aches, depression...the yuks.
Month of April: Probably self-administered interferon treatment. Sub cutaneous 3x /week. More yuks.
Just what one can figure out from reading medical literature, talking to KT, friends, and KT’s med school friends.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
relief is having the kafkaesque stop
- the med student,
- Dr Laura Lambert's explanation of how Lynn's brother, Dr. Ken Eckhert changed her life from German scholar to noted cancer surgeon http://www.telegram.com/article/20100129/NEWS/1290496/1116
- a single room,
- the housekeeping staff, he gave me a newspaper and the supervisor asked me if things were to my satisfaction (wow)
- hearing lynn and lou were tops in duplicate bridge
- figuring out i was going to survive idiots
- kt rescuing me
- hospital room with a view
- hearing that QQLA meeting went well and the website will be better
- all the messages, emails and phone calls from friends near and far but all very dear.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Life changes after melanoma stage 3
So what’s the update
I’m feeling the love and attention.
It seems the whole family pitched in to make sure I got everything I need. Mike gave me a car to get me to the OR on time. Sara gave me her room, Kevin visited, and Mary Kate got me my favorite anti-cancer treat (cinnamon donuts from Dippin’ Donuts). Mary supervised my first baths and dressings and got me home after some hilarious incidents caused by Ativan. It made me truly looped for the entire day after the nuclear tracing injections. I forgot to be NPO after midnight because I woke up at 12:30 am with a graham cracker in my mouth… and ate it. I had a low threshold of inhibition & then has to ‘fess up to anesthesia. They gave me a spinal instead of general. I promise to be better.
Elizabeth took over for 2 weekends and was very attentive making sure I got coffee and my special toast from Rose32, my favorite bakery.
I am improving from the toe amp. I had my first day without any pain medication on Jan. 19. I am walking easily sometimes with a cane. During my last visit to the surgeon, Laura Lambert (google her to find out her creds), 2 old time nurses & I impressed the young doc with our ancient tales.
Katie came from CA to do an elective on melanoma for 3 weeks until Feb. 8. She has been answering her own questions and talking to classmates, and will explain all my options so I can be ready for the oncologists. We can hopefully get her a few days in derm clinic at UMass.
So the plan is for surgery on Thursday, Jan 27: a superficial left groin lymph node dissection. A lot of nodes will be removed and tested to further stage the melanoma.
Staging determines treatment options.
After the surgery, I will have drains in my groin and be sent home for a month of recovery, trying to keep the drain clean and dry with the aid of diaper gel dressings. I may be on crutches again, short term.
I have 2 follow up appointments scheduled with oncology. The first opinion is with Kathryn Edmiston scheduled for 2 weeks after surgery UMass. The second opinion is one week after the surgery. Yes, typical backass style. I’m seeing Paul Chapman, one of the dream team members at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center. (MSKCC). I just hope at one-week post op, I’m somewhat mobile.
Whatever is the consensus will hopefully be started at UMass somewhere around Mar 1. KT says I’m to receive immunotherapy rather than chemotherapy. The goal is to stimulate my immune system to attack cancer cells. My lymphocytes are being lazy, or the melanoma is smart. Immunotherapy is no cakewalk…it makes you feel like you have perpetual flu with muscle aches, fatigue, depression and the yucks. Yuck.
For fun, KY and I are going to NYC to see Book of Mormon and staying at Karen Eckhert’s studio. She is out on the west coast being a new Grammy. Karen is Lynn’s sister from Buffalo, and we have been to NYC for shows and museums. We can hopefully see the new American Wing at the Met and go to MoMA. Then back on Wednesday, and NPO after midnight for surgery the next day, if I can remember.
Fun things in my life, not in any order:
- Winner at duplicate bridge yesterday w/partner Pat Seabourne.
- 2 weekend visits by EJ to get me home to the lake and laugh.
- EJ cleaning up my piles of stuff….what a switch!
- Skyping with Porter weekly. What a boost he is with typical 20 month old antics.
- Celebration of Stage 3 (not 4) dinner with stories of Lou and guns.
- Plans to listen to ice noises with the underwater microphone from Skip and Judy Nielsen
- Laughing at the Colbert and Stewart election antics.
- Putting my car off my driveway into the trees after not making it up the hill with the recent snow.
- John Stone, jailer, getting me up and going with coffee and oatmeal every day, setting quotas of soccer ball production and making me use the crutches.
- Sara’s Stone’s basketball games
- Mary Stone’s (my sister) dinners, medication supervision, running UMass central, and being there.
- Messages, visits, and help from all my lake friends. I know they are there for me.
This weekend I’m expecting a visit from a Burundi Jesuit priest. Heis getting a PhD at BC in Human Rights & Social Justice. We met on the plane to Rwanda. The Patriots-Ravens game will be on. Lou and Lynn may visit, and Kevin and Carol, too.
All the emails and phone calls from friends, near and dear and now renewed are a boost.
I am smiling lots , enjoying each minute, and finding all the black humor I can.
Meg
Thanks to Kt for making sentences complete and erasing most of my elipses…